For a 10 year anniversary , I would like to upload music that my past self , my 2015-2016 Maria would have listened to , as a contrast /opposition to my current self.

Lots of mix styles, genres , Pink Floyd, Tame Impala (we call him Kevin Parker back then) , Travis Scott and Birds in the Trap sing McKnight, the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill, Kanye West, Kid Cudi, garage music, King of the Road , skateboarding ,Mac DeMarco, rock festivals , NBA nights, Lana Del Rey, Artic Monkeys (you know what was up ) , some moody house sounds ,Sweater Weather , Cro, Dirty Diana ( I don't have an average experience -I'm born the same day Princess Diana is born , but the year of 1997, 1st of July ,which is exactly in the middle of the year -ruler between two worlds, my German childhood and my Greek formative years .I wasn't here for average experiences) ,Black Keys...Muse concerts and trying to explain myself what is a Supermassive Black Hole .

Elvis voices ,sunsets at the beach , someone plays the ukulele for me . Taking piano lessons, the traumatic experience of the movie " the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind " and even worse "Donnie Darko" ,last year of going on a summer camp, i read the Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera . I surfed a lot, back then .I have the surfers curls and freckles under my eyes. I call Athens "my Cali". I draw on the four walls of my Room pictures that came in mind, the Las Meninas, play cards and a welcoming "How ArT You ?" ,Jefferson Airplane or not …. i was listening to the Smiths, yes . "There is a light that never goes out " that night and i knew exactly where that light came from. Akropolis view is served from my balcony . 2015 I might have wanted to join the gymnastics team , 2016 i make it to Philosophy School. Whistling "Take Five "by  David Brubeck while getting on the subway from University to home. Date nights with my dog, he was so good to be true, my brother and I compete each other daily on a ping pong table we bought  , going to theatre a lot, coffee places (our third place ) with the friends , we play board games after class ,i teach a lot and work at Davinci Gelato .Getting Johny, the Rabbit.

I broke my ribs fractures that year .Well , we were hit (only me got really hit) on New Year's Eve by another car. The pain was resulting in the chest for about 6 months . Worse than inspiration. Nothing could have broken my classiness, though. I kept going as if a Mrs . Golightly character. Someone said i look like Audrey Hepburn and talk like Björk, maybe it's how i nod my head and make the sound "um-hum". I was thinking i was Arabella ( my mom said i was born in Arabellapark , so statement approved ). Arabella was a good girl actually , but a cool one.  If a boy wears a leather jacket around that time and posts in black and white , I might like him ( and other artistic criteria that I'm very serious about - I never liked somebody if he hadn't a "charisma" )  and now, I don't know if i like a "cool boy" or if i want to be one . I mean "why you dress better than me ?" Sometimes, I want to outperform these "cool boys" so much , I might start demonstrate against them . Hate and love coexists and I love love love … when things oppose(challenge) each other . 

I don't know if I'm that Tumblr arabellapostmixlemonade anymore, but I'll tell you something on opposites dynamic 

*don't look up for the account -it's was deleted years ago

What about everything opposing itself ?

"If everything opposes itself", then we are talking about self contradiction :

In logic , something cannot be both A and not-A at the same time in the same respect (law of non-contradiction) . If everything opposes itself, existence collapses into paradox (nothing could exist consistently).

However , in dialectics (Hegelian philosophy for example), opposition is part of development :contradictions drive change and transformation . So "opposition" can coexist in dynamic without destroying existence. 

Think of reality and life as full of pairs of opposites: light and dark , hot and cold , joy and sorrow, order and chaos. These opposites aren't just randomly "against" each other . They have a relationship. 

Let's talk more about opposites as a dynamic force

OPPOSITES ATTRACT 

In Physics , we see attraction between opposites : positive and negative charges pull together. 

In human experience, opposites often complement each other : a challenge highlights the value of ease ; sadness deepens the experience of joy . 

Philosophically, opposites draw attention to each other , create tension and make awareness possible. 

Without darkness , we wouldn't know what light is. 

OPPOSITES OPPOSE

Conflict is inherent: opposites resist each other to maintain their distinctness. Fire and water , freedom and restriction , creation and destruction. They maintain boundaries through opposition.

This opposition is not negative . It's necessary friction . Without it , everything would collapse into uniformity , and there would be no change , no growth , no evolution . 

OPPOSITES DEVELOP 

When opposites interact , something new emerges . This is a principle of dialects : 

Thesis + Antithesis → Synthesis .

For example, struggle + adaption → strength ; chaos + order →complexity ; love + challenge → deeper understanding . 

Opposites create movement . If everything was static , with no internal tension , there would be no development. .

OPPOSITES AS MIRRORS OF EXISTENCE 

Every entity contains its opposite in potential : a seed contains a tree, a shadow contains light,

By opposing itself , a thing defines itself. By attracting its opposite , it becomes complete or whole . 

In essence:

Opposites exist to define , attract, resist and evolve each other . Their interplay is the engine of existence itself. Without opposition , there is stagnation and without attraction ,there is isolation . Also, without the dance between them , there is no creation or growth . 

I think you all enjoy my enigmas and i don't underestimate your intelligence.

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